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| 12:52pm 04/03/2006 |
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Yes. Don't rub your eyes, they haven't faile you. Jessie is back. With the internet. I haven't died or anything like that. I simply moved away. I had to get away. It was extremely hard to face any of you, some of you my closest friends and tell you I was leaving, especially when it was something you'd maybe never understand. But I want you all to know that I love and miss each and every one of you, my beautiful pumpkins. I want you to know that I regret not giving any of us the chance to say goodbye -- to hug one last time. I want you to know that I am truly sorry for not informing you and I hope very much that you still want to be my friend. I have learned from this mistake and will never do anything like that again. I live in South Carolina now with my boyfriend Patrick and I have never been happier in my life. I hope that is enough information for now, because I have to get ready for work soon. :P hah... but anyway, there will be many a post from now on. We just got our DSL hooked up today and so I HAD to make this my first order of business (well, second... the first thing was signing on to AIM) :P I hope everyone is doing fabulous. I talked to Kat yesterday and loved hearing her lovely voice and I found out Becki's in India!! *gasp* Crazy!! Anyway, there is a lot of chnage and hey... let's embrace it. I love you guys and i hope through all of this confusion you still love me too. *hugs*
PS I'll be in Wisconsin from the 19th to the 26th of April (but the 20th -23rd I'll be in Minnesota with family) but the 23rd (nighttime) to the 25th (nighttime) I'm free for friendly encounters for all those available. I love youuuu!!!!!
~~~Jessica Leigh Fitzsimons <3
I'M BAAAAAAAACK and I love Patrick. <33333 |
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| 04:08pm 30/03/2005 |
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stolen from pixiesdeal:
I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions.
No more, no less.
Ask me anything you want and I will answer it.
Then, I want you to go to your journal and copy/paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything. |
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| 12:56pm 29/03/2005 |
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*IT'S SPRINGTIME!
*Getting lots of hours at work
*Shellie and Jake (lil sis and lil bro) are on their Band/Choir spring break trip to New York City/New Jersey and I miss them already. PLUS I'm just plain jealous. BASTUHDS!
*Talked to Nadia
*Easter was nice :)
*Went shopping today
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Sorry so short, but I gotta go! I'll update better (well, in more detail that is heh) soon, I promise! |
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| 12:45pm 17/03/2005 |
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*Got a surprise phone message from Davey :)
*Got Nadia's package
*Interpol/Q and Not U show with JonJon
*Got Adam's package
*Got my first check from Logli
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One Sunday (I think it was a Sunday? Maybe a Saturday?) I got a message on my phone from a lovely Australian, Davey! Thank you so much it was lovely. :) Made me smile bunches!!! Really. I'm just sorry I missed your call. :(
Nadia, you are such an adorable sweetheart sugar muffin deluxe! I LOOOOOOVE that yellow "chicks rule" rubber bracelet! it's too cute for WORDS! and the mood ring is so prettiful, it rocks my socks off into the next room. The CDs, are FANTASTIC. You are so BEAUTIFUL for giving those to me, 'specially your special Pixies mix, you DOLL! I feel VERRRY special. :)
Adam, you are also a sweetroll from heaven with sprinkles of fun! I looove that CD you made for me, it's fantastic. And your little note to go with it was very sweet. No matter what kind of paper it's on, it's beautiful. And I thank you. You don't know how excited I was when I opened my box and saw that! All the way from Down Unda! :D hee hee. *BIG SQUEEZES*
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The Interpol concert with Jon was very fun. It was so much fun despite the crowd of ****DOUCHEBAGS**** who were there booing Q and Not U and flipping them off and screaming "FUCK YOU!" and "GET OFF THE FUCKING STAGE" and "PLAY SOME ROCK!" and being complete idiots to them. I found it personally insulting because I love Q and Not U so much. I was more excited to see them than I was Interpol, to be honest and it was just heartbreaking to see such talented musicians get disrespected so much. But anyway, Q and Not U ended up getting back at the asses in the audience when the keyboardist ended up producing an ear-piercing feedback noise for like the span of WAY TOO FUCKING LONG (Jon said 20 minutes) until a security guard finally shined a light in the poor angry guy's face forcing him to stop and get off the stage. While my ears were displeased with this, I was all for it. I would've done the same goddamn thing if I were them! Whatever, I better stop talking about it or else I might cry or something ridiculous.
Interpol were spiffy. I liked them live, it was very very good. But it was more fun watching the audience members dancing and observing the fans and the lighting guy and stuff than it was watching the band. They for the most part just stood there. In comparison to the opening band they were boring as far as showmanship. It was super cool though looking down from the balcony and watching the dancing people (although I was suprised at the COMPLETE LACK OF SCENIES!). Oh and there were way too many old people. It freaked me out a bit.
For setlist and stuff like that, you can go to my friend Jon's journal. (oswaldtherabbit). He has a good description of what happened as well.
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I got my first paycheck today. I put some in savings, and the rest is for gas, new shoes, and phone bill. Sweet mother I'm glad to be alive. Or not.
But anyway, I felt I owed an entry to you peeps so you knew where I was and stuff. I also really really really needed to thank the lovely Nadia and Adam for their beautiful packages. *blows kisses to Texas and Australia* And also to Davey, who took the time to call and check up on me and leave me a cool message with his awesome kickass accent! :D Thanks dahling. *blows kisses again to Australia!*
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OH! And Andy, my beautiful friend. I hope you're doing okay. <3333 |
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| 09:44am 04/03/2005 |
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I had this really pretty story that was just me observing my surroundings at the library but it's in my other notebook on my bedroom floor, tossed among lots of clothes and rubbish. I'll put it up when I can. It's quite lovely, actually. :)
I don't really have anything else to say right now. :) Have a beautiful Friday, and enjoy your weekends, everyone. :)
Love,
Jessie
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| 11:38am 03/03/2005 |
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I love sunbathing through the windows of the library, lounging there on the comfy chairs with footrests and reading fascinating books or writing poetry. All that is missing is the tea. But the library probably would frown on beverages or something. I'll settle for being tea-less. This works just fine... |
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| 10:23am 02/03/2005 |
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mood: ecstatic
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Um. Cindy is the coolest.
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I hate when the ladies at the library go on the intercom and distract me from my mindlessness. Gah.
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I just looked at pictures of Billie Joe on rollingstone.com. *le sigh*
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I got my Taurus back and my dad's mad because I couldn't pay him for the repairs right then. Still can't, and he's probably still mad, but what does he want me to do, crap out 160 dollars? Sorry, not possible.
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There's always something... always...
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But fuck it. I'm going to see Q and Not U and Interpol wih Jon in like... a couple weeks. HOLY SHIT A COUPLE WEEKS! *dies of excitement* Just kidding I didn't die. I'd never die before seeing a show that kickass.
Yee hawww!!!
OMG I'm going to some cool-ass shows... |
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| 10:34am 01/03/2005 |
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Today I had an interview at Logli's, a grocery store in town. I think I did really good and I'll know by Thursday if I got the posish. Cross your fingers if you wanna! :D
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I no longer live inside of an igloo. :D Furnace Guy strikes again! Dum da dummmm!!!
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Strike a pose. Vogue.
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Today I'm going to pull out my pages of my Rolling Stone that have Green Day on 'em and I'm going to make little construction paper frames and hang them above my dresser next to Eddie Vedder. Weeee!! :D
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I also want to start writing more letters. To special people. :)
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I'd like to thank the Academy for stuff.
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Time for noogies!
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I'm reading The Bell Jar for the 12.5th time. I LOVE THAT BOOK. Don't tell Shellie, but I'm going to give her a hardcover copy for graduation. :D |
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| 04:24pm 27/02/2005 |
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Last night was fun. We ate at Maria's and had some laughs. Looking back I wish we would've been able to cyber bowl. We really gotta do that soon. :) Or ANYTHING! I'm addicted to my friends. :)
Love,
Jessie |
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| 10:53am 25/02/2005 |
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I love tank tops with lace trim and blazers and dress pants and buckley heels and root beers and penguins and stuffed animals and jewelry and pink stuff and magazines and chocolates and movies and my cd collection and the stars and the moon and sunsets and sunrises and pictures of billie joe armstrong and big chunky constume jewelry and regular sized costume jewelry and perfume and flowers and lambs and kittens and poetry and The Bell Jar and pretty lyrics and breezes and icicles and springtime and jumping in puddles and birdies chirping and bunny rabbits and twirling and dancing and taking walks and talking on the phone and singing and humming and super mario 64 and princess peach on mario 64 and ice cream and lip gloss and makeup and pretty things and lacey underwear and my friends and and and!
so much more. :) |
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| 10:49am 23/02/2005 |
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mood:  whatever.
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I think I have a cleaning problem! Yikes!
Also, that Michaela chick on American Idol who sounds like Fran Drescher NEEDS TO GO!!! She has a voice that makes small woodland creatures commit suicide. DAMNNNNN.
Also, I wanna give a shout out to everyone because I never get to hang out with anyone anymore. :(
I love you all though. <333 *big hugs*
have a wonderous hump day.
love,
jessie |
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| 12:53pm 22/02/2005 |
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I wish that Spring would hurry hurry hurry and get here so I can see the apple blossoms and birdies playing in puddles... |
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| 07:21pm 18/02/2005 |
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APRIL:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to
regret.
Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong
mentality. Loves attention.
Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's
problems. Brave and
fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and
generous. Emotional.
Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving Motivates
oneself and others.
Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a
way that only their luver can see.
What does your birth month say about you?
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I'm sexy! :D |
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| 02:50pm 16/02/2005 |
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mood:  indescribable
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Losing a job really fucking sucks major ass. Just ask me.
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In other news, I bought myself a Glamour magazine, chocolate, and some cds yesterday. Here they are:
Bright Eyes: I'm Wide Awake It's Morning
Bright Eyes: Digital Ash in a Digital Urn
Elliott Smith: the new one, can't remember the title
Green Day: American Idiot.
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The weather is eerie and beautiful today. It reminds me of being little. And dreaming.
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This is the first day of my life.
I swear I was born right in the doorway.
I went out in the rain and suddenly everything changed there spreading blankets on the beach.
Yours is the first face that I saw.
Think I was blind before I met you.
I don't know where I am, I don't know where I've been, but I know where I want to go.
So I thought I'd let you know.
These things take forever, I especially am slow.
But I realized that I need you and I wondered if I could come home.
Remember the time you drove all night. Just to meet me in the morning.
And I thought it was strange you said everything changed you felt as if you just woke up.
And you said, this is the first day of the rest of my life.
I'm glad I didn't die before I met you.
But now I don't care, I could go anywhere with you and I'd probably be happy.
So if you want to be with me, with these things there's no telling we just have to wait and see.
But I'd rather be working for a paycheck than waiting to win the lottery.
Besides maybe this time it's different, I mean I really think you like me.
--Bright Eyes "First Day of My Life"
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Mmmmm.. fucking beautiful lyrics...:
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"If you walk away I'll walk away. First tell me which road you will take. I don't want to risk our paths crossing some day. So you walk that way and I'll walk this way. The future hangs over our heads and it moves with each current event. Until it falls all around like a cold steady rain, just stay in when it's looking this way. The moon's laying low in the sky. Forcing everything metal to shine. And the sidewalk holds diamonds like a jewelry store case. They argue, walk this way, no, walk this way. Laura's asleep in my bed. As I'm leaving she wakes up and says, "I dreamed you were carried away on a crest of a wave, baby don't go away, come here." There's kids playing guns in the street. And one's pointing his tree branch at me. So I put my hands up, I say enough is enough, if you walk away, I'll walk away. And he shot me dead. I found a liquid cure. For my landlocked blues. It will pass away like a slow parade. It's leaving but I don't know how soon. The world's got me dizzy again. You'd think after 22 years I'd be used to the spin. And it only gets worse if I stay in one place, so I'm always pacing around or walking away. I keep drinking the ink from my pen. And I'm balancing history books up on my head. But it all boils down to one quotable phrase: if you love something give it away. A good woman will pick you apart. A box full of suggestions for your possible heart. And you maybe be offended and you may be afraid, but don't walk away don't walk away. We made love on the living room floor. With the noise in the background of a televised war. And in the deafening pleasure I thought I heard someone say, if we walk away they'll walk away. But greed is a bottomless pit. And our freedom's a joke we're just taking a piss. And the whole world must watch the sad comic display, if you're still free start running away, because we're coming for you. I've grown tired of holding this pose. I feel more like a stranger every time I come home. So I'm making a deal with the devils of fame, saying let me walk away please. You'll be free child once you have died. From the sackles of language and measurable time. Then we can trade places play musical graves. 'Til then walk away walk away walk away. So I'm up at dawn, putting on my shoes. I just want to make a clean escape. I'm leaving but I don't know where to. I know I'm leaving but I don't know where to."
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| 12:06pm 15/02/2005 |
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I finally get a full time job and what do I do? Hate it. Reality has finally sunk in. I HATE NOT BEING A KID.
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But hey! I finally paid my traffic violation. So I got that off of my shoulders. Once I pay the rest of this massive phone bill I will feel so happy, I might just click my heels together or something. Yeah. That's the ticket.
No I won't. That would be ridiculous.
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All I care about it pretty pink frilly things, chocolate, nintendo, animals, food, shopping, music, poetry, and sleeping. Work does not fit the equation, folks. I am so lazy. Or maybe it's just the transition period between teen and adult. I'm on the edge of my teen years. I'm turning twenty in about two months here. I need an office job. I need to quit this bullshit job I have now. Saying hi to people for fucking 38 hours a week. Sorry that doesn't make me feel very grown up and stuff. Sure, the pay is good but goddamn I feel useless. And customers and sales associates alike make jest on my position as "greeter". Wow, I feel so FUCKING GLAD to be there. :(
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And Kelly Services can lick me where I bleed. Sorry if that disturbs you, but I FUCKING HATE THEM with the fire of a thousand suns. They don't have their shit together and they are just plain BITCHES. Stuck up bitches. I hate them. Even the one I'm related to.
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I have to get away from the Temp. Agency scene. It's making me crazy.
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| 10:55am 14/02/2005 |
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Happy Valentine's day, my little Valentines! None of you can say you don't have a Valentine because you are all my Valentines. HA!
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| Hello everyone, I'm still alive |
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| 09:25pm 12/02/2005 |
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I just wanted to drop a few lines telling you guys that I'm okay and just really really busy lately. I probably won't even get online to view comments for like a couple weeks even. So don't think I'm being cold or something if I don't reply to them right away!! But don't let that discourage you from commenting because if I come back a week from now and nobody commented I'll think that nobody cares that I am okay! haha. Well whatever. Now I'm just being retarded. AND LONG WINDED! er... damnit! how would you say that if you were talking about typing? long winded doesn't exactly make sense. Oh you miss this already I know you do... /sarcasm.
ANYWAY!!
I got the full time greeter posotion at US Cellular, so I haven't been able to come online and stuff lately. I work every single farkin' day except for Saturdays. So when I'm not working I'm sitting on my bum playing Mario 64 because I just don't feel like doing anything else. I'm tired damnit.
ANYWAY. If you guys were wondering where I was. **IF** you were wondering, now you know what I've been up to. But you didn't have to worry because I'm just fine! Yay! I'm fine! SUPER!
I hope you guys are all fine, too. I'm sorry if you like announced you had like some terrible sickness and never got a comment from me hoping you were okay or something. I just want you to know that I'm not like being a jerk or ignorning or avoiding or something! Or maybe I'm thinking about this too much.
I love everybody and miss you all to. A special shout out goes to Nadia, my BIG SIS! Who I miss SO FUCKING MUCH!! Nadia, if you're reading I'm so sorry for not keeping in touch! I hope you got my email.
Much love to everybody. <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3 |
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| 02:50pm 28/01/2005 |
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i feel like a little flower today. |
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